One hour, one day, one week?
A month, a year, please not a decade!
“Pray and don’t worry, leave it in his hands”
Was the declaration I had made
Whether praying for marriage, a job
A house, a new car, or going back to school
I didn’t realize the process involved
And I was trying hard to stay cool
My best friend is moving out of the hood
Uncle Joe got a bonus and a raise
My neighbor got a full scholarship
All their prayers answered in a matter of days!
My ex got a new higher paying job
My aunt came through cancer free
Even my enemy got blessed with a new car
And my wild and crazy cousin still ain’t got an STD
Testimony after testimony at church
Answered prayers, blessings, and miracles too
For everyone but me
Got me wondering, “Lord, what did I do?”
I mean hold up, don’t he cheat on his wife?
And Sis. Joan stole church money right?
Don’t that girl drink and beat her kids?
And I know the choir director be clubbing all night!
I’m just dazed, annoyed and very confused
Cause they all just gave testimonies of praise
And I’m sitting here crying inside
Wondering when in the world I’m gonna get outta this phase
This verse is so easy to quote and yet so hard to actually do sometimes. We can say it to others to try and encourage them but how quickly we forget it when our own time of “waiting” actually comes. I’ve recently been struggling with waiting for a new/better job opportunity. I’ve been on my current job for almost 3 years, with little room for growth or increase in pay. I’ve actually been given more responsibility disguised as a “better opportunity” only to still have the same title and pay at the end of the day…..oh and not to mention stricter guidelines and a reduction in my bonus….yeah I’m smh too. After being promised a new role within a year of starting this job, the fulfillment of that promise keeps getting pushed further and further away. I’m sure many of you can identify with this scenario. However, in the midst of complaining, talking about management, and wishing I could just quit most days, God has been vigorously reminding me through His Word how horrible my attitude has been while I wait for Him to answer my prayers: Continue reading →