When you don’t know what to do, do what you know to do!
A situation may be out of your control, or maybe you’ve exhausted your resources, pursued every possible avenue, sought help everywhere you could, and you have no clue what step to take next.
All you can do is what you know to do: wake up each day, get up, read your bible, pray, and leave the rest with God. Sometimes all you can do is keep moving, as if its a normal day, all while putting your trust in the Lord. Not only is that sometimes all you can do, but its the absolute BEST thing to do!
So I’m a compulsive planner – literally. I write my grocery lists out in order of how they are located in the store (and will even adjust based on the layout of which Walmart I’m going to). I re-write my to-do lists in the order of how they should be done that day. I iron clothes for myself and my son a week prior based on events, weather, etc. I plan out my budget down to the bag of Laffy Taffy’s that I purchase every other Friday from the Dollar Store. I plan out every moment of my vacations, including tentative naps and lounge time. I plan out my Children’s Sunday School lessons, down to the amount of time I’ll allow for prayer. Yea, I know, it’s a little much lol. And God forbid, “my plan” for the day gets thwarted in any way, shape, or fashion – I’m thrown off completely! I get anxious, stressed and frustrated!
However, lately I have been learning to be more spontaneous and most of all to allow room for God’s “planning” in my life. It was in the midst of devotions one morning recently, that God spoke to me and said “you can’t plan everything, you have to leave room for me to work in your life”. Now we all know that having a plan or making plans is never a bad thing. However, what we often fail to do is to include God in our plans.
I’m planning to move to a new apartment within the next 3-6 months and that planning process has turned into me planning the next decade of my life! I didn’t just map out furniture and décor, I’ve started trying to plan where my son will play basketball or ride his bike. How much will I have free in my budget each month to save towards my next overseas vacation or cruise? What online courses should I start taking to get a better paying job to be able to move into a house 5 years from now? What part-time work can I do now for some extra cash? Should I start a fund for my future grandchildren (mind you, my only son is currently just 10 years old)? Do I want to go sky-diving for my 40th birthday (3+ years away)? Where do I want to move to once my son goes off to college? Do I still want to get that personal trainer certification?
This was all on my “things needed for the move” list! LOL
Ever since I was kid, my mind has always gone a mile a minute and I often think of what feels like thousands of things at once! I think, and think, and think and think, and then I get anxious, overwhelmed, and eventually a headache of frustration. I’m just now learning at 36 years old, that I need to do less thinking and planning and more praying and trusting in God. I keep a pocket bible and devotional handy at work, in my car, in my purse and at home so that no matter where I am, if I ever start to get an onslaught of compulsive anxious thoughts, I go straight to His Word to shift my focus and then once my mind calms down, I immediately start praying. Sometimes I’ll just keep reading a verse out loud over and over until it sinks in and resonates with my soul.
Through this, God has been teaching me, slowly but surely, to continue planning while surrendering my plans to Him for approval, change or denial based on His Will for my life. The thing is, God’s plan is always the best plan for me, even though I don’t always realize it at first. After all, God already knows our future and has already mapped out the “ultimate plan” for our lives. We just need to sit back sometimes and let that plan unfold.
One hour, one day, one week?
A month, a year, please not a decade!
“Pray and don’t worry, leave it in his hands”
Was the declaration I had made
Whether praying for marriage, a job
A house, a new car, or going back to school
I didn’t realize the process involved
And I was trying hard to stay cool
My best friend is moving out of the hood
Uncle Joe got a bonus and a raise
My neighbor got a full scholarship
All their prayers answered in a matter of days!
My ex got a new higher paying job
My aunt came through cancer free
Even my enemy got blessed with a new car
And my wild and crazy cousin still ain’t got an STD
Testimony after testimony at church
Answered prayers, blessings, and miracles too
For everyone but me
Got me wondering, “Lord, what did I do?”
I mean hold up, don’t he cheat on his wife?
And Sis. Joan stole church money right?
Don’t that girl drink and beat her kids?
And I know the choir director be clubbing all night!
I’m just dazed, annoyed and very confused
Cause they all just gave testimonies of praise
And I’m sitting here crying inside
Wondering when in the world I’m gonna get outta this phase
This week God has been reminding me that not only do I need to trust in Him to do what He says He will do, but that I also need to remember to acknowledge Him in all that I do.
Webster’s dictionary defines “acknowledge” as follows: to accept or admit the existence or truth of. So if the Bible tells us to acknowledge God in all our ways so that He can direct our paths, that tells me that if in fact we proclaim to “trust” in Him, that we would display that “trust” by acknowledging his presence in every aspect of our lives. So what does that look like on a daily basis?
For me, its when I pray for a new job, acknowledging that God is Lord of my life, and committing what I want into His hands, but at the same time asking Him to show me what His will for my life is. In other words, “God, I want to work in education and instructional design so please direct me to a position where my skills can be utilized, but if there is something else you want me doing instead, please show me and direct me accordingly.”
Its letting God know my concerns about my child’s schooling and instead of trying to figure it out all on my own, acknowledging His sovereignty over my life, and asking Him to help me make the right decision.
Instead of just going out and buying a much needed new vehicle, its acknowledging God as provider of all things, and asking Him to direct me to the right dealership, with the best price as opposed to purchasing the car of my dreams that I really can’t afford. Read the rest of this entry »
This verse is so easy to quote and yet so hard to actually do sometimes. We can say it to others to try and encourage them but how quickly we forget it when our own time of “waiting” actually comes. I’ve recently been struggling with waiting for a new/better job opportunity. I’ve been on my current job for almost 3 years, with little room for growth or increase in pay. I’ve actually been given more responsibility disguised as a “better opportunity” only to still have the same title and pay at the end of the day…..oh and not to mention stricter guidelines and a reduction in my bonus….yeah I’m smh too. After being promised a new role within a year of starting this job, the fulfillment of that promise keeps getting pushed further and further away. I’m sure many of you can identify with this scenario. However, in the midst of complaining, talking about management, and wishing I could just quit most days, God has been vigorously reminding me through His Word how horrible my attitude has been while I wait for Him to answer my prayers: Read the rest of this entry »