Happy Friday everybody!
Funny how we sometimes like to plan out every little detail of life. How we’re going to spend our day, our weekend. What we’re going to wear, and where we’re going to go and with whom. Or even if we’re staying in, we plan the shows we’re going to watch, and what desserts we’re going to indulge in. All our plans start to shape up and then it hits……a cold, an infection, a stomach virus, a migraine, or worse yet, the flu or pneumonia. Some sickness that sweeps us off our feet for a day, or two, maybe even a week or more. All plans come to a halt, as our bodies just don’t want to cooperate with our plans. For someone like myself, who likes to go a mile a minute and doesn’t like to waste time at all, a “sick day” can seem devastating! I don’t get to accomplish what I want. I fall behind in a project. I miss work (although for some this is not a bad thing). I have to postpone a fun activity. I get off track with my workout schedule. I don’t make it to church to teach my little ones. And just like that, what was supposed to be a 3 day weekend is wasted – see devastating!
This past week I have been mostly laid up in bed with a really bad cold/allergy turned sinus-infection. I honestly can’t remember my last “cold” – it had to have been at least 3-4 years ago. Apart from the occasional headache, stomach bug or half day allergy spell, I just haven’t been sick. So when this whole thing hit, it really knocked me down. All I could think of everyday was how much I wasn’t getting done or what I was missing. Then God spoke to me and reminded me, that it was okay and that He was still in control.
Me being sick for a week, wasn’t going to stop the world from running. In fact sometimes God sidelines us because He wants to get our attention. He wants to speak us when we’ve been too busy to listen. Sometimes our body just needs a break and being sick is the only way we’ll take one! Sometimes in our “planning” we get ahead of God, so he halts us temporarily to get us back on track with His plan. Whatever the case, being sick is not the end of the world. Now granted, it’s no fun either, but go through the process, medicate, rest, listen for His voice amidst it all and leave the everyday stuff to Him. Work and everything else will still be there once you’re better.
It’s been a challenging week, but I got more sleep than I have in a month, I’m 8 lbs. lighter, I am more enlightened spiritually, got an answer to a prayer, and the world around me is still here – parenting, my job, housework, bills and all! LOL
Remember: God is in everything – our good days, our great days, our bad days, and our sick days!
So I’m a compulsive planner – literally. I write my grocery lists out in order of how they are located in the store (and will even adjust based on the layout of which Walmart I’m going to). I re-write my to-do lists in the order of how they should be done that day. I iron clothes for myself and my son a week prior based on events, weather, etc. I plan out my budget down to the bag of Laffy Taffy’s that I purchase every other Friday from the Dollar Store. I plan out every moment of my vacations, including tentative naps and lounge time. I plan out my Children’s Sunday School lessons, down to the amount of time I’ll allow for prayer. Yea, I know, it’s a little much lol. And God forbid, “my plan” for the day gets thwarted in any way, shape, or fashion – I’m thrown off completely! I get anxious, stressed and frustrated!
However, lately I have been learning to be more spontaneous and most of all to allow room for God’s “planning” in my life. It was in the midst of devotions one morning recently, that God spoke to me and said “you can’t plan everything, you have to leave room for me to work in your life”. Now we all know that having a plan or making plans is never a bad thing. However, what we often fail to do is to include God in our plans.
I’m planning to move to a new apartment within the next 3-6 months and that planning process has turned into me planning the next decade of my life! I didn’t just map out furniture and décor, I’ve started trying to plan where my son will play basketball or ride his bike. How much will I have free in my budget each month to save towards my next overseas vacation or cruise? What online courses should I start taking to get a better paying job to be able to move into a house 5 years from now? What part-time work can I do now for some extra cash? Should I start a fund for my future grandchildren (mind you, my only son is currently just 10 years old)? Do I want to go sky-diving for my 40th birthday (3+ years away)? Where do I want to move to once my son goes off to college? Do I still want to get that personal trainer certification?
This was all on my “things needed for the move” list! LOL
Ever since I was kid, my mind has always gone a mile a minute and I often think of what feels like thousands of things at once! I think, and think, and think and think, and then I get anxious, overwhelmed, and eventually a headache of frustration. I’m just now learning at 36 years old, that I need to do less thinking and planning and more praying and trusting in God. I keep a pocket bible and devotional handy at work, in my car, in my purse and at home so that no matter where I am, if I ever start to get an onslaught of compulsive anxious thoughts, I go straight to His Word to shift my focus and then once my mind calms down, I immediately start praying. Sometimes I’ll just keep reading a verse out loud over and over until it sinks in and resonates with my soul.
Through this, God has been teaching me, slowly but surely, to continue planning while surrendering my plans to Him for approval, change or denial based on His Will for my life. The thing is, God’s plan is always the best plan for me, even though I don’t always realize it at first. After all, God already knows our future and has already mapped out the “ultimate plan” for our lives. We just need to sit back sometimes and let that plan unfold.