Never Alone

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This morning I had one of my true “mirror moments”.  You know one of those days where the reality of life just hits you all at once.  You get a rush of negative thoughts that flood your brain and all of a sudden you feel like you’re alone, not in control, and that the worse is about to happen.

I was out Ubering and had to literally pull over to the side of the road and just burst into tears.  Nothing bad or major had happened.  It was just a whirlwind of things that I had been suppressing in my subconscious from the previous week:  my son starting to grow up and dealing with all the new challenges that comes with that; my new real estate venture that I’m praying will come to fruition quickly; my blog and newly  published online course that I was literally having to beg family and friends to support; my divorce process that hit a snag in the road;  my paycheck that was delayed by a week.

Suddenly I just felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders and that I was all alone and no one cared.  Thankfully I keep my pocket bible in my vehicle and immediately opened it up.  The first verse I saw was:

Psalm 42:11 (CEV)

“Why am I discouraged?  Why am I restless?  I trust you!  And I will praise you again because you help me, and you are my God.”

It was just enough of a reminder to get me to stop crying, wipe my tears and smile.  Too often we have meltdown moments like these and too often we get “stuck” in those moments.  Which turns moments into hours, days, weeks, or maybe even months.

I’m learning that I’m NEVER alone.  Even on the toughest of days – when you feel like you have no support, friends won’t text or call you back, family goes M.I.A., you’re handling your problems and everyone else’s, work literally sucks, your children give you hell, or every thing in the world that could go wrong does go wrong – God is still there.

I’ll be the first to admit that being a single mom is by far the most challenging thing I‘ve ever had to do.  But I’m grateful that when these moments of emotional breakdown, frustration, sadness, and even anger arise, that I quickly turn them into “mirror moments” by reflecting on the mirror of God’s Word.  For it is then, and ONLY then, that God reminds me that I’m not in this by myself.  In fact, he knew I was going to have the meltdown.  He knew what was going to trigger the meltdown.  But, most importantly He knew He would be with me through the meltdown and He sees my testimony coming down the road after I push through several meltdowns.

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